I Recently went into My Best Friend, Li Yan's Blog. And i saw this 2 Blog "22 & 23 June 08". I'm very sad because something happen's in Jw house and it make her feel that "I'm a bad person or Etc" I dont wanna say what she told me cos i take in Comfidently. But i feel even sad is.. She say's : i realise that even being good towards a person or doing a good deed to a person they will nv appreciate... it's dumb to be a good person.. Is this mean ppl nv do good to her? i keep thinking abt it.. it's dumb to be a good person.. but i always being good to ppl did ppl appreciate.. or whta i do is not "good thing" and make her think is bad that she dont appreciate?? i dont know is that saying abt me because of sunday. "Things" happen make me think that is all saying abt me.. i dont know.. Hope is not..
Next is.. She say's:right now i can really trust no one except baby boy... though he's not always there fer me but he comforts me and pamper me.. She say "no one".. Am i part of the "no one"?? If Yes: Li Yan.. i dont know what happen to u.. i Always put u as my very good friend.. i nv think of anything to make u feel bad of to hurt u.. if u say there is no one care of u except baby boy.. then i really feel bad and i feel very Useless for me myself.. i cant even let my good friend to trust me.. When we r still 16's u use to tell me what happen good or bad and i also let u know abt mine.. i know time hav change.. U hav a BF but atlest u let me get Updated of happen from u.. u say ur maple di tell everything to mich.. u see, he juz ur maple di u alreay feel this way.. i'm ur good friend how i feel?? u oso tell all the thing to JW.. i know everything from him or mich.. we hav go trough such a long Friend Ship.. go Trough so many seas and yet what i am is a fish inside a bottle.. Nv know what happen to u and what u hav been.. i know u can always look for Jw when u need help but i oso hope sometime u will think of me when u need help.. i oso sceard to tell u what happen to me cos u might think for what u tell me?? we hav been Friend for so many yr's and what you think is i dont care for you and make you Untrust of me.. i know Jw is ur Bf and he care of u.. But did i care for u?? uR Picture only Jw.. What oso Jw.. where is me?? Am i part of ur Picture?? i feel so left out after u wroth this.. i'm not compareing me and Jw cos friend and Relation can Nv put together, But I as ur friend really tt Powerless to stay in ur Picture 4Ever?? 1st u put Yvonne aside?? am i the next?? i dont know.. if u say no one care for u then u should know how i feel when ppl dont trust espesally U li yan when u dont trust me.. U nv ask me what happen, am i the one who make "Thing" happen.. But what u did is "YOU R THE ONE".. do u know how i feel?? U say u hav u bad moob, i know becos i know u for Yrs and u should know what happen saturday.. i oso feel sad and i still need to open 1 eye and close the other for u.. I dont wanna be like this forever.. i oso hope ppl can Open one and close the other "FOR ME" can this happen?? One day a strong tree will fall and all the leaf will drop too.. I'm not as strong as what u see.. When i got thing i oso need to think can i tell u?? Because u always busy.. When i feel lonelyness who is there be my side?? i Want to ask u out but i nv ask, WHY? cos i know u r not free.. nopoint Jumping in to the seas where there is no Life Guard.. i always the one who call u and ask "how r u".. Who not u the one called and ask me the same question?? Even is juz a "how r u" this is enough.. Always i ask u out.. Why dont u ask me out?? Why always i must be the 1st one to move?? i oso wanna be late sometime.. Step aside and let ppl care.. i keep careing for other but who care for me?? And u r my very Good Friend u dont even trust me then who will?? Yan.. u Should be crying now i know.. And i dont wanna bluff u.. I'm saying this with me tears on..
To Jw: I know u will read this and i dont want u to think what i jus said is saying abt u.. This is something between me and Li Yan.. I hope u dont feel angry what i jus said.. Dont read this as a shoe of Li Yan BF.. Read this as a Freind who care for his Real Friend's.. Hope u understand ya..
